REGRET

I am the one who wished to have everything 
but the god is not so kind 
he has been so atrocious to me and has given me no reason to shine 
i wish i could show you how i am 
but you won't believe it like you do every time 

i am the one who cares for you 

but you won't realise it untill i die for you 
then you will understand that i was someone 
who loved you more than any one 
you will then cry for what you have done 
but to listen there will be no one 
then you will come on my grave with regret and shame 
then you will realise who was i 
and will cry for my name..... 
-SUHAIL  

"A TOUCHING STORY THAT WILL MAKE YOU CRY''

Well i am not the writer of this story but i wrote this poem.Once i came through this story and i was deeply touched,i felt like this was going to happen with me,, i just felt like reshaping it into a poem so here it is 

"A touching love story that i'll make u cry" 

Written by a BOY in his diary 

"10th Grade:- 
... ... 
As I sat there in English class, 

I stared at the girl next to me. 

She was my so called 'best friend'. 

I stared at her long, silky hair, 

and wished she was mine. 

But she didn't notice me like that, 

and I knew it. 

After class, 

she walked up to me and asked me for 

the notes she had missed the day before. 

I handed them to her.She said 'thanks' 

and gave me a kiss on the cheek. 

I want to tell her, I want her to know 

that I don't want to be just friends, 

I love her but I'm just too shy, 

and I don't know why. 

11th grade:- 

The phone rang. On the other end, 

it was her. She was in tears, 

mumbling on and on about how 

her love had broke her heart. 

She asked me to come over 

because she didn't want to be alone, So I did. 

As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her 

soft eyes, wishing she was mine. 

After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, 

and three bags of chips, 

she decided to go home. 

She looked at me, said 'thanks' 

and gave me a kiss 

on the cheek..I want to tell her, 

I want her to know that 

I don't want to be just friends, 

I love her but I'm just too shy, 

and I don't know why. 

Senior year:- 

One fine day she walked to my locker. 

"My date is sick" she said, 

"hes not gonna go" well, 

I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, 

we made a promise that 

if neither of us had dates, 

we would go together just as 'best friends'. 

So we did. 

That night, after everything was over, 

I was standing at her front door step. 

I stared at her as She smiled at me 

and stared at me with her crystal eyes. 

Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" 

and gave me a kiss on the cheek. 

I want to tell her, 

I want her to know 

that I don't want to be just friends, 

I love her but I'm just too shy, 

and I don't know why. 

Graduation:- 

A day passed, then a week, then a month. 

Before I could blink, it was graduation day. 

I watched as her perfect body 

floated like an angel 

up on stage to get her diploma. 

I wanted her to be mine-but 

she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. 

Before everyone went home, 

she came to me in her smock and hat, 

and cried as I hugged her. 

Then she lifted her head from my shoulder 

and said- 'you're my best friend, 

thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. 

I want to tell her, 

I want her to know 

that I don't want to be just friends, 

I love her but I'm just too shy, 

and I don't know why. 

Marriage:- 

Now I sit in the pews of the church. 

That girl is getting married now. 

and drive off to her new life, 

married to another man. 

I wanted her to be mine, 

but she didn't see me like that, 

and I knew it. 

But before she drove away, 

she came to me and said 'you came !'. 

She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek. 

I want to tell her, 

I want her to know 

that I don't want to be just friends, 

I love her but I'm just too shy, 

and I don't know why. 

Death:- 

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin 

of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. 

At the service, they read a diary entry 

she had wrote in her high school years. 

This is what it read: 

*I stare at him wishing he was mine, 

but he doesn't notice me like that, 

and I know it. 

I want to tell him, 

I want him to know that 

I don't want to be just friends, 

I love him but I'm just too shy, 

and I don't know why. 

I wish he would tell me he loved me ! 

.........'I wish I did too...'* 

I thought to my self, and I cried." 

EVERYONE HAS A STORY, .....................SUHAIL

ONLY FOR YOU

I Wrote This For You 
Today I feel... Lonely? 
I think. 
Drops of rain 
hit the windshield of my parked car. 
Tall groomed, green, and golden grass 
line the parking lot. 
Rain is coming in 
through my windows. 
But 
I don’t wanna roll them up. 
Let them come. 
Let the drops hit 
or miss 
A feeling of being trapped 
chained in a cave. 
Watching shadows dance on the wall. 
I'm thinking of you now. 
Yes, You. 
The people I will read this too. 
I wonder why I feel the need 
to share this moment 
with so many strangers. 
Could it be that feeling? 
What did I call it again? 
Was it loneliness? 
Doesn’t make any sense 
cuz I've felt that before 
and it was never as calm as this. 
Perhaps it's a feeling subdued. 
One that is being repressed. 
Today I feel... 
Today I feel... 
Nothing I guess. 
Or maybe that I'm dreaming. 
Perhaps it's boredom I feel 
and a longing for things to be curiouser. 
Nelly Fertado pops into my head. 
That song, 
“I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away” 
I guess I am. 
Though most peg me for a cat. 
Perhaps due to the grin. 
Yup. 
Boredom. 
That must be it......................SUHAIL

LOVE

Love is in the air,

Love is everywhere
If you were smart
You would say it in your heart
Love is in your eyes
Love is in your soal
But when you think you have found the one,
You are probably not done
Love is all about pain
And if you ask me it drives all insane.........SUHAIL

I AM FALLING APART

You stole my heart
and tore it in two

Now i'm falling apart
and have no idea, what to do

I tried so hard
i tried my best


I gave you my everything
now there's nothing left

I'm living in the present
my mind lives in the past

Wondering what i'll lose
wondering what i'll last

Divided by decisions
burning in the fire

Confused by your words
tempted by desires

Blinding by my fear
drowning in my doubt

Struggling to be free
always looking for a way out....... SUHAIL

TO ESCAPE

You left me waiting for you in the dark
The coldness of night had torn us apart
As i looked down the road i know the end was here
The love i had somehow disappeared
How lonely i was left in despair
Teardrops of regret fall from my face
Only how i wish i could of escape
It's too late to turn back now
Our love was once like a candle burning so deep
Now it's over and the beauty has escaped
The memories that are locked will remain in my heart
The once, precious things has fallen apart
And deep inside i'll never let you go
You give me the world, you made me have faith
Now i am all alone just trying to escape........SUHAIL

PASS WITHOUT YOU

I started to pass without you
that's what i wanna say
but that's not true
I need you,i need you
the thing you wrote
which was a little note
has proven to be true
I can't still believe,that
the days have passed
now you are not with me
you are far apart
I still think of you
and want you to be with me
so the note proves wrong
and we may not get separated for long....... SUHAIL